Stand out

Apparently what they say about this age is really true.

The turning inward, the clinging to simple truth,the alert filtering out of anything that lacks the flavor of honest living,the deep feeling of I don’t care what will be, that is exactly what’s happening now.

And the truth is, it really is a great light.

Because I too grew up inside the centrifuge that destroys the different and the other.The eternal desire to be and to do what is expected, what is accepted, what is familiar.

Internalize again and again, each time anew, that there is no one like me, and no one like you, and no one like us, this is complicated and charged and requires leaping over the fear of standing out, the fear of standing exposed, me, myself, and Spirit.

This is what the Ayahuasca teaches, this is what channeling teaches:to stand, fully stand, with boldness and courage. And simply be there.

And yes, this inner discussion is so important and destabilizing.

But being destabilized is vital and beneficial. And challenging inner orders is simply necessary.

I came home from my recent visit at my Spiritual studies understanding my place in the world a bit more, my working language.

And truly, working and living in a space without a 'simple', common language is challenging and sometimes very lonely.

But in this time, the dots are connecting for me.

My longing to live close to myself, in the lap of Spirit,to teach myself again and again to rest from everything out there that is fake,forced, strained, this longing arranged me beautifully.

I feel my love for myself in every breath.I see my role with clarity and experience a completely new ease.Without effort, without fear, without wasting time.I am so grateful for the smart and sweet filters that have grown within me.

This power, to take full responsibility for my closeness to myself,for Spirit nourishing me, this power is absolute: to choose what will fill me, what will calm me, what will bring me joy. And I truly didn’t know how wonderful and unconditionally resilient it is in everything life brings to my doorstep.

To be part of the frequency of unconditional joy of life is a kind of diet.The taste in the mouth resets.The desire sharpens to eat only what strengthens.

These are the kind of lives I live, and these are the kind of lives you can have too,

if you feel like having them.